and so the journey has ended for me.. i lost in the quarterfinals.. dissapointed? yes definitely. pissed off? yes, with myself. sad? no.. i knew i lost because of my own stupidity. i shall not dwell on the details of the match cos it'll only bring more heartache. all the best to Izyan (my opponent) in the Finals.. and to all the remaining seligi peeps goin into the finals this sunday, FITE ON AND BRING BACK ALL THE 17 GOLDS OK!! INSYAALLAH!!
i had initially planned that this will be my last year representing seligi in PSK.. but since i did not manage to bring back any medals (which really really really sucks by the way), it kinda burn my desire to fight again next year.. hmmm.. insyaallah i will be back.. stronger, faster and a better fighter.. like real only eh... haha.. insyaallah..
hmmm.. ok so after my match.. i was feeling like sh*t lah.. as usual.. untiiiiil..... someone came.. he brought Canadian pizza.. and we ate.. together.. with some of the seligi peeps.. then we talked for a while.. somehow his presence made me feel alot better.. and for that instance, i almost forgot that i had just lost my match.. hahah.. till we meet again N***i.. thank you.. once again.
now i can finally concentrate on my gym training.. first, i need to lose 5kg cos competition is over.. so i'll be doing alot of cardio exercises to burn those extra babat off.. once i'm back to my 50 - 52kg weight range.. i'll build on my muscle mass.. and look like her! muahahahah....
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aku tidak rasa yang dia rasa sepertimana yang aku rasa.. aku seakan pasti. mungkin dia hanya cuba memberi seadanya seperti teman-teman yang lain.. aku saja yang rasa kelainannya.. namun jauh di sudut hati, percubaan adalah suatu gerak pertama yang besar.. titik permulaan, menatih untuk tumbuh dan bercambah.. jika ia tiada, mana mungkin perasaan seterusnya akan beradu antara kita..