Trip to Sempang Renggam..


woo hoo! malaysia truly asia!


tukar duit dulu..


reaching the Toll..


this is mr boyan while travelling at 80km/hr.. sempat nyanyi2..


and this is him while travelling at 140km/hr.. hahaha.. serious kape..


ok dah sampai..


minah jakun..

oklah that's all for now.. nak kemas rumah ah.. Adios!


*********



Ketika aku mendongak ke langit.. mengagumi ciptaan Tuhan yang luas, tercetus banyak pertanyaan yang ingin aku bertanya kepada yang maha Esa. Tentang pelbagai persoalan yang saban hari membebankan. Tidak bolehkah semuanya menjadi mudah? Tanpa perlu ujian dan akal untuk melawan. Adakah segala ingatan itu sekadar harapan yang tidak akan pernah kesampaian? Adakah mungkin, pada suatu hari nanti aku akan menyerah? Dan kalah?

Sedalam lubuk langit, terdalam lagi fikiranku. Aku perlu bertahan.

A colleague fwd this to me..

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse/partner. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called 'falling' in love... Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, 'I was swept off my feet.' Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome
(when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, 'Did I marry the right person?' And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.

You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't 'find' LASTING love. You have to 'make' it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression 'the labor of love.'
Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can 'make' love.

Love in marriage is indeed a 'decision'... Not just a feeling.

Remember this always:

'Fate determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.'

Who is to say we're not meant to be? Who is to say we're not good enough? Who are they anyway?


Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the risk that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

it's a very small world indeed.

To mr boyan: Of all the fishes in the pond, u had to bait the wrong one. *slaps forehead*

To all affected peeps: Relax, it's just a harmless message on frenster. we dun need to get so worked out bcoz of that lah.. pls, i dun want things to escalate further.. let's end it here k. pls. ni kan bulan ramadhan.. banyak bersabar ler.. hari raya nanti bleh minta maaf. hahaha.. zakat dah bayar belum?? =P

so anywayyyyyyyyy........ more random pics below..

Date: 20 Sept 2008
Venue: Simpang Bedok
Time: 2am (yup, as in 2am in the morning)
Peeps: Mr Boyan and Azlan gila.


Lucky number 16.. =)


gelap lah..


they used to be in the same class as me time madrasah.. pelik, tapi benar.


all the other hungry burung hantu(s)..

RaNdoMneSs..



kebab station @ east coast park..


starters..


mine..


his..


anak sape ni? =P



next stop..


Cafeela @ jalan kayu..


meet the fockers..


my bros..


sape ni?


busy busy..


no comment.


Ok dats all.. bubbye!!!

Kuserahkan hasrat untuk bersamamu.. merentasi horizon ke hari esok..
Terbitnya mentari hari ini meningkatkan usiaku setahun. Sebaik sahaja selesai fardhu subuh, aku berfikir dan merenung seketika.. segala apa yang telah berlaku sepanjang tahun lalu dan dua puluh dua tahun yang lepas.. begitu banyak pengalaman yang tidak dapat aku lupakan.. telah aku berdiri, berlari dan terjatuh menyembam bumi untuk menyedari kekurangan diri.. kini aku dalam tahap untuk membangkitkan semangat yang telah lama hilang.. mengukir sekali lagi impian dan cita-cita yang telah lama musnah.. Terima kasih tuhan, untuk nyawa yang kedua ini.. tidak akan aku persiakannya lagi.

Semasa dalam perjalanan pulang semalam, ketika aku mendongak ke atas, kulihat ketakjuban pelita yang perkasa dan terang.. ia bagaikan matlamat kita untuk terus bersinar dan memancar, bagai gemerlapan eka bulan penuh kesaktian.. Aku menoleh ke kanan.. menatap wajahnya yang begitu tenang sambil memandu keretanya.. Dia mambalas tenunganku.. bersertakan senyuman manis yang terpancar dari bibir nan indah.. Dalam hati aku berdoa, aku ingin bersamanya..

Aku harap bermula hari ini, aku akan menjadi lebih matang dan dewasa dari yang sebelumnya.. Semoga aku sedar apa yang aku mahu dalam hidupku.. Dan aku juga berharap bermula hari ini, apa yang aku inginkan tidak tinggal hanya impian.

Terima kasih kepada semua (ramai sekali untuk disenaraikan) yang telah sudi menghulurkan ucapan hari istimewa ini.. i love you all!!


p/s: sorry peeps, i had uploaded the wrong pic previously. opss! haha..

My Mister Boyan
(note: this post will be written in english so that he does not have to refer to the Kamus when reading it)

so much has happened since the day we met. from the day i get to know of his existence, which was roughly 8 years ago, i never thought that i could ever fall for him. but well, in this crazy little world.. anything is possible. i realise that now.. he could.. quite possibly.. be the ONE that i'm looking for. =)

he's someone loving and tender.. someone who had taught me so many things.. things that i was oblivious to and couldn't care less for all this while.. he's someone who entrances me and keeps me amazed.. with his sweet surprises and kind romantic gestures that seems to flow so naturally from him.. he once told me, "My actions will speak louder that my words.." well.. indeed it does. =)

ok he's a boyanese (a definite plus point).. a soccer player.. a thinker.. he loves Math and needs help for Malay (i'm the exact opposite. haha).. he drives a Honda Fit and sends/fetch me to/from work everyday.. which sometimes makes me feel like i'm being pampered too much.. =S

he's someone very honest.. open-minded.. and most distinctively, a very funny guy! i guess he's the only person besides Yazid (Seligi Tunggal) who can make me laugh so hard till i have cramps on my cheekbones.. even Yazid agrees that he's a great guy. and he has never even met him before.. hahha..

and... my parents love him.. i repeat, my parents love him. =)

there's actually ALOT more that i can write about him here.. but then.. it'll look like as though i'm writing a friendster testimonial.. haha.. so i think i better stop. for now.

you know, i'd always wanted to be blown away by someone whom i can consider so much better than me. and that someone.. is him. after breaking up with my last ex, i never really cared about love and the meaning of it.. and now i noticed how it is lacking in my pathetic little life. truth is, i'm still finding for a reason to think that i'm special enough for him.



Thank you Mirza, for all the sacrifices that you've done for me. =)

Forgive me, ya Allah.

to you, i'm sorry.

Aku harap Ramadhan kali ini akan lebih bermakna untukku. Kerana tahun lepas aku kecundang menerima beberapa dugaanNya itu. Aku bersyukur juga kerana nyawaku masih ada dan hela yang dilepaskan ini masih sihat dan terancang.

Aku berharap bulan yang suci ini dapat membersih dan menjernihkan hati semua umat.. agar lebih kuat, beringat dan berhati mulia.. Untuk diriku pula, aku mendoakan perkara dan pelajaran yang sama.. semoga aku tidak terpandang noda dan tidak murah pada dosa.

Di bulan yang penuh keredhaan.. bulan yang memuji kebesaran Tuhan yang menjadikan siang dan malam.. aku berdoa ia membawa sepenuh erti kepada semua. Semoga kita akan terus taubat dan istiqamah dalam perjuangan sebagai khalifah di bumi Allah.. Amin amin ya robbal a'lamin..

Selamat Datang Ramadhan. Selamat Beribadah Semua.

Nine words women use...

1.) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are
right and you need to shut up.

2.) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour..
Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more
minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3.) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something,
and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing
usually end in fine.

4.) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5.) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement
often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an
idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing
with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6.) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a wom a n
can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard
before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7.) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say
you're welcome.

8.) Whatever : Is a women's way of saying F@!K YOU!

9.) Don't worry about it, I'll do it : Another dangerous statement, meaning
this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but
is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's
wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.Then you RUN!

Received this email from my supervisor in the mornin... woo hoo!! FINALLY.

Re: Hand Over of Duty

"Hi Diana,
In view of your involvement in YA** testing, I'll re-assign the following duties to J****e & J**y w.e.f. 1 Sep 08. Please brief them and do a hand over by 29 Aug.."

Teman



Kehangatan mentari menyinari pagi
Derusan hujan mendingini panas
Saling mengiring saling melengkapi
Begitulah kudrat illahi

Kehadiranmu teman bagaikan cahaya
Menerangi taman hatiku yg sepi
Jalin kasih mesra kurnia maha esa
Merestui kemesraan ini

*Andai bunga tiada mekar mewangi
Hancurlah harapan unggas menyepi
Andai dikau menghilang dan menyendiri
Ku terapung hilanglah panduan
Bak hujan di tengah hari
Panas menduri bumi...
Begitulah perasaan pabila bayangmu pun tiada

Keikhlasan hatimu menghangatkan jiwa
Kelembutan suaramu menyejukkan bara
Jernih airmatamu lambang ketulusan
Menemaniku dikala kesepian

Teruslah menyinar mentari pagi
Teruslah menari hujan yg mendingin
Menghijau menyegar menyuburi bumi
Saling menjalin hubungan infiniti...

~ This song's for you.. ~

A quick update..



Yesterday's Johor trip with Mir (Mr. Big Bad wolf) was fun.. it was the the first time that i went somewhere outside singapore without my parents and not for a sch function.. pathetic rite? haha.. so being the "katak bawah tempurung" that i am, i didnt even know what Autopass was and i thought JUSCO was a university name cos it's located at Taman Universiti.. *slaps forehead* jakun betul! haha.. but i really feel at home in m'sia lah.. y?? cos everything's in bahasa melayu! im thinking of migrating there once i retire.. tengoklah mcm mana.. =) overall, the trip was superb! so the next one pegi mana Mir? Thai? Indon? hahah.. macam paham je.. =P

anyway, i can't believe my mom and auntie are trying to matchmake me with some 30 year old guy! do i look that desperate?? HAH, WAT DID YOU SAY! YES??! Bloody hell! hmm.. tapikan, if the 30 year old guy is as _______ *cant think of an appropriate adjective* as the Kadi in my prev post, why not! hahaha..

oklah i gtg now.. till next time.. ciao!

Dan apabila semua ini sampai ke saat matangnya, ia akan terus hilang. Semangat, kata-kata, impian dan keghairahan ini akan pudar.. dan aku pula akan sedar bahawa yang tertanggung di dalam benakku adalah halunisasi yang sia sia sahaja.. Malah, ia juga akan berlalu pulang. Ke tempat asalnya.


"Apabila hati terikat dengan Allah, kembalilah wanita dengan asal fitrah kejadiannya, menyejukkan hati dan menjadi perhiasan kepada dunia - si gadis dengan sifat sopan dan malu, anak yang taat kepada ibu bapa, isteri yang menyerahkan kasih sayang, kesetiaan dan ketaatan hanya pada suami."

i took 1 day leave from work yesterday and just take a look at what greeted me first thing in the morning today.. WTF man.


one big pile of CRAP! *pulls hair*


settled cases..


the toilet.. my sanctuary.. hahah..

oklah back to work.

~ Thinking of.. hmmm... ~

Sehelai baju putih

Dengan ucap bismillah aku menyarungkan baju putih pemberian ikhlas dari nya. Tersenyum aku seketika.. melihat baju bersulamkan benang putih kelabu tersarung rapi ditubuhku. Sambil menatap wajah dan bentuk raga di cermin kaca, kenangan manis dari bermulanya titik pertemuaan kita datang mengisi ruang minda.. membuatku terus tersenyum. Aku manghela nafas kesyukuran.. Tanpa izinNya, pertemuan kami tidak mungkin tercipta, dan perasaan ini tidak mungkin ada. Alhamdulillah..

Aku sendiri tidak percaya dengan keadaanku sekarang. Segalanya bagai mimpi yang singgah sejenak dalam lenaku yang singkat. Bagaimana kami dengan sekelip mata, sepantas waktu boleh menjadi sangat mesra, akrab dan tidak boleh tidak bersama.

Seperti baju putih yang bersih, putih dan suci, mungkin sebegitulah permulaan fasa hidupku yang baru. Aku mahukan kedamaian di situ, yang pandangannya sejauh infiniti, tenang dan hakiki, dicipta untukku.


~ Tiap kali kita bersama, hidupku seakan tercapai tahap sempurna. Kehadiranmu melengkapi jiwaku. ~

i was in my dad's van.. on the way home from training when i heard this song over the radio.. i couldnt stop smiling.. cos it reminded me so much of him. haha.. crazy lah. *sigh*


Jawapanmu - Misha Omar

terleka bila berbicara denganmu
pastiku terbang tinggi ke awan biru
bermain dengan kata-kata
dari bibirmu itulah mimpiku selalu

kerap kali kau muncul di ruang minda
denganku kini kian sempurna
bilaku terjaga kau di depan mata
katakan saja apa yang di rasa

kamu selalu buatku tersenyum sendiri
ku tahu apa sebalik senyuman itulah yang ku mahu
jawapan dari kamu

aku selalu terkenangkan kamu
bila kamu jauh dari diriku kamu selalu yang ku rindu
jawapan rinduku kamu

nyata berbeza cara kau berbicara
ku terasa diriku istimewa
mahuku bertanya tapi ku tak berdaya
dah ku dekat denganmu kelu lidah membisu

masih lagi ku tercari-cari
dari mimpi ke mimpi hari ke hari
nyata mulanya dari kamu
katakan saja apa yang di rasa

kamu selalu buatku tersenyum sendiri
ku tahu apa sebalik senyuman itulah yang ku mahu
jawapan dari kamu

aku selalu terkenangkan kamu
bila kamu jauh dari diriku kamu selalu yang ku rindu
jawapan rinduku kamu

selalu aku mendoakan
agar kita disatukan
dan kita akan
ke akhirnya

kamu selalu buatku tersenyum sendiri
ku tahu apa sebalik senyuman itulah yang ku mahu
jawapan dari kamu

apa yang kau mahu
itu yang ku mahu
janganlah kau pergi
tinggalku sendiri
ku cari jawapan pasti

kamu..
kamu selalu buatku tersenyum sendiri


~ come home safely please. ~

Jika kehadiran dia umpama angin, mengapa derunya amat kuat?

Sudah hampir aku terlupa wahai hati, saat terakhir aku berperasaan begini. Tidak perlu aku jelaskan bagaimana berharapnya perasaanku pada saat ini.

Kalau termampu, aku akan berikan kesemuanya. Kalau ternyata, akan aku bahagiakan insan bernama dia. Jika tuhan mengizinkan, akan aku panjikan mahkota hatiku ke persada yang paling tinggi untuknya. Dan seandainya kita ditakdirkan untuk bersama, aku ingin dia bangga memilikiku seadanya.

Yang nyata, aku bersyukur kepada yang Maha Esa kerana menghadirkan dia ke sisiku. Aku berserah pada segala ketentuanNya. Kerana hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu segala hasrat dan impian yang tersirat di dalam hati kecilku.



~ Kepada si dia, terima kasih untuk segalanya.. ~

p/s: S M Salim mini version. it's been long time since i laughed that hard. =D

i wanna go!!

Drops of Jupiter - Tanya Chua

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there’s time to change, hey, hey
Since the return of her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey, hey

Now that shes back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain Ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone
Conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had.. and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way

celebrated national day twice this year.. the first was on 8th Aug @ IRAS..



waiting for the big boss to arrive..


no comment..


i love the kids!!! they're so cute!!


sing along session..


so happy sia..


ok da bis.. it's back to the office people!


Chinese new year??


flag-o-mania..


******End of Part 1********


Now the second "celebration" was yesterday itself @ the Padang.. with an old fren (yeah you're OLD, Mirza. jgn step muda!) and my couz, Izzati..


We're finally here.. this is the place where all those who did not get the platform tickets gather.. *pathetic* hahah..


Mirza.. ex primary and madrasah sch mate..


Izzati.. my couz..


Blow mirza blow! hahah..


we laughed our ass off bcos of this thing.. *you know, i know! hahaha!*


the crowd..


look at the sky..


and then.. it started to pour.. *shoot!*


lil' red riding hood..


and the big bad wolf. hahah!!


nite time..


the only decent pic of the fireworks that i managed to capture with my hp..


True frens light up your life! =)


on the way home..


kenape adik? tercekik? hahaha..

till we meet again OLD fren.. thanks for the ride! =)


******The End********


~ i've never felt this patriotic before sia.. hahah.. ~