PSK udah TAMAAAAT.. woo hooo!! ALHAMDULILLAH!! we're overall champ for Pra-remaja and Dewasa team once again.. for 3 years in a row now.. muahaahah..

cup tu sume kita punya!!!


"Ayat-Ayat Cinta" back up actress num 1..


"Ayat-Ayat Cinta" back up actress num 2..


"Ayat-Ayat Cinta" back up actress num 3..


Dewasa putri (tanding) surfing atas matress.. ye, mmg kitorang takde keje lain..









cya next year!! *muacks*

Tolong sampaikan pada si dia..


Tolong beritahu si dia, aku ada pesanan buatnya..
Tolong beritahu si dia, cinta agung adalah cintaNya..
Tolong beritahu si dia, cinta manusia bakal membuatnya alpa..

Tolong nasihati si dia, jgn menyintaiku lbh dr dia menyintai Yang Maha Esa..
Tolong nasihati si dia, jgn mengingatiku lbh dr dia mengingati Yang Maha Kuasa..
Tolong nasihati si dia, jgn mendoakanku lbh dr dia mendoakan ibu bapanya..

Tolong katakan pada si dia, dahulukan Allah (SWT) krn di situ ada syurga..
Tolong katakan pada si dia, dahulukan ibu bapanya krn di telapak itu syurganya..

Tolong ingatkan si dia, aku terpikat kerana imannya bukan rupa..
Tolong ingatkan si dia, aku lebih cintakan zuhudnya bukan harta..
Tolong ingatkan si dia, aku kasihinya kerana santunnya..

Tolong tegur si dia, bila dia mula mengagungkan cinta manusia..
Tolong tegur si dia, bila dia tenggelam dalam angan-angannya..
Tolong tegur si dia, andai nafsu mengawal fikirannya..

Tolong sedarkan si dia, aku milik Yang Maha Esa..
Tolong sedarkan si dia, aku masih milik keluarga..
Tolong sedarkan si dia, tanggungjawabnya besar kepada keluarganya..

Tolong sabarkan si dia, usah ucap cinta di kala cita-cita belum terlaksana..
Tolong sabarkan si dia, andai diri ini enggan dirapati kerana menjaga batasan cinta..
Tolong sabarkan si dia, bila jarak mejadi penyebab bertambah rindunya..

Tolong pesan padanya, aku tidak mahu menjadi fitnah besar kepadanya..
Tolong pesan padanya, aku tak mahu menjadi punca kegagalannya..
Tolong pesan padanya, aku membiarkan Yang Esa menjaga dirinya..

Tolong khabarkan pada si dia, aku tidak mahu melekakan dia..
Tolong khabarkan pada si dia, aku mahu dia berjaya dalam impian dan cita-citanya..
Tolong khabarkan pada si dia, jadilah penyokong dalam kejayaanku..

Tolong sampaikan pada si dia, aku mendambakan cinta suci yang terjaga..
Tolong sampaikan pada si dia, cinta kerana Allah (SWT) tidak ternilai harganya..
Tolong sampaikan pada si dia, hubungan ini terjaga selagi dia menjaga hubungan dengan Yang Maha Kuasa..

Tolong sampaikan kepada si dia kerana aku tidak mampu memberitahunya sendiri..

Hanya engkau Ya Allah (SWT) mengetahui siapa si dia..

Moga pesananku sampai padanya walau aku sendiri tidak mengetahui siapa dan dimana si dia.. Moga dia seekor lebah yang sentiasa memuji keagungan Yang Maha Kuasa memasuki taman larangan dengan sopan santunnya dan bertemu mawar berduri yang terjaga oleh tuannya.. Simpanlah pesanan ku ini sehingga engkau bertemu diriku suatu hari nanti..

Conversation with my couz a few days ago..

my couz: "knp akak masih single? not looking for a bf?"
me: "haha.. nope.. not the time yet.."
my couz: "why? still hurt becoz of prev relationship?"
me: "hahah!! tu lagi klakar.. i'm soo over that lah.."
my couz: "tapi sampai biler nak single? takmo tunggu lame2, u r getting OLD!"
me: "kurang asam pei budak!"
me: "actually, there are many things that i wanna accomplish first.. and having a bf is like my last priority now.. maybe lagi 2 ke 3 tahun baru cari laah.. hahah.."

hmm.. it's not a crime to be 23 and single, rite? what's the fuss sia..

AKU KALAH!!!!!!



and so the journey has ended for me.. i lost in the quarterfinals.. dissapointed? yes definitely. pissed off? yes, with myself. sad? no.. i knew i lost because of my own stupidity. i shall not dwell on the details of the match cos it'll only bring more heartache. all the best to Izyan (my opponent) in the Finals.. and to all the remaining seligi peeps goin into the finals this sunday, FITE ON AND BRING BACK ALL THE 17 GOLDS OK!! INSYAALLAH!!

i had initially planned that this will be my last year representing seligi in PSK.. but since i did not manage to bring back any medals (which really really really sucks by the way), it kinda burn my desire to fight again next year.. hmmm.. insyaallah i will be back.. stronger, faster and a better fighter.. like real only eh... haha.. insyaallah..

hmmm.. ok so after my match.. i was feeling like sh*t lah.. as usual.. untiiiiil..... someone came.. he brought Canadian pizza.. and we ate.. together.. with some of the seligi peeps.. then we talked for a while.. somehow his presence made me feel alot better.. and for that instance, i almost forgot that i had just lost my match.. hahah.. till we meet again N***i.. thank you.. once again.



now i can finally concentrate on my gym training.. first, i need to lose 5kg cos competition is over.. so i'll be doing alot of cardio exercises to burn those extra babat off.. once i'm back to my 50 - 52kg weight range.. i'll build on my muscle mass.. and look like her! muahahahah....


*******
aku tidak rasa yang dia rasa sepertimana yang aku rasa.. aku seakan pasti. mungkin dia hanya cuba memberi seadanya seperti teman-teman yang lain.. aku saja yang rasa kelainannya.. namun jauh di sudut hati, percubaan adalah suatu gerak pertama yang besar.. titik permulaan, menatih untuk tumbuh dan bercambah.. jika ia tiada, mana mungkin perasaan seterusnya akan beradu antara kita..

cam whoring @ california fitness changing room..

baru bis mandi.. lawa tak? i mean the lockers behind lah..

the vanity area..

sparkling clean eh..

ok dah.. itu je for now.. hahah.. im bored actually..

I'd rather love you from a distance than be loved and have my heart riped out for me to wear out on my sleeve. I think for now, we're better off as just friends. Please spare me the heartbreak.

From : me
To : someone who will never know how I feel.

Just received my performance bonus letter from my director.. Alhamdulillah!! im so happi!! Thank you Allah.. I LOVE YOU!

the best part is that the bonus will be credited on 11/07/08.. my salary will be on 12/07/08.. and PSK will end on 13/07/2008.. which meeeans... i can go shopping rite after PSK!! muahahaha... i think i wanna go m'sia lah.. sape2 nak ikoot!??

Aku dapat melihat dari jauh.. seorang insan yang terpaku, seorang diri dalam ruang itu, termenung, keliru dan buntu.

Dan orang itu adalah aku.

I won't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, i'm sure
there's no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait, i'm yours 2x

no please don't complicate, our time is short
this is our fate, im yours.
no please don't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, the sky is yours! ***************************

I won't hesitate no more, no more.. it cannot wait.. Hesitate what? Masuk TUMBUK ah! lepas tu TONJANG! muahaha..

p/s: Luper pulak nak update about my match on Sunday.. Alhamdulillah, i made it tru' the preliminary rounds.. next week will be my quarter finals.. let's get it on.. *ROAR*

it's almost 9 pm and im still at the office.. just finished my presentation slides.. like FINALLY man.. wah lauuuu now im super shagged.. and im so freakingly HUUUUNGRRRYYYYY.. ok before i leave, wanna share a pic forwarded by one of my colleagues.. amaciam babe, nak cuba? style sia..


macam tudung saji ku kat rumah.. muahaha.. i still love you siti.. =)

Suka? atau Sayang?

"Jangan tinggalkan orang yang kita SAYANG untuk orang yang kita SUKA, kerana orang yang kita SUKA akan tinggalkan kita untuk orang yang mereka SAYANG. Dan janganlah buang masa untuk cuba mendapatkan apa yang kita SUKA tapi SAYANGILAH dengan apa yang kita ada.."

Hmm... Nasihat yang amat bermakna buat diriku saat ini.. mungkin buat dirimu juga. =)

Mungkin benar tuhan mahu aku terima balasan dosa-dosa yang telah aku lakukan dahulu. Kini amat sukar bagiku merasai cinta, untuk jenuh menghidu sayang dan berat menitiskan airmata.

Mungkin kerana hingga saat ini aku masih belum bersedia untuk melepaskan mimpi-mimpi itu berlalu dari diriku. Mimpi yang menyusup ke dalam jasadku, perlahan-lahan menjadikan aku manusia yang ingin menjauhi hasrat untuk menjalin apa jua hubungan lagi.

Bagiku, bila seseorang ingin mendekatiku, dia sekadar beriya sementara dan esok lusa kami akan cari haluan masing-masing yang berbeza. Aku jadi takut bila orang yang aku suka mendampingiku kerana aku tidak punya daya untuk meletak setitip harapan untuk dia. Padahal, dia aku suka. Dia mungkin boleh jadi yang sempurna.

Adakah aku layak untuk manusia yang seterusnya? Adakah aku akan adil dengan jiwaku yang tersisa ada?

Biarlah masa menentukan semuanya. Aku hanya berserah kepada yang Esa.

2 more days to PSK 2008.. im so in competition mode now.. *ROARRRRR*



10 Reasons Y U Should leave office at 6pm

Tenunganmu. Tenungan mata yang redup, setanding dengan kelumit senyuman yang menunggu. Menunggu orang yang memerhati untuk jatuh hati dan gian bermimpi. Bermimpi untuk mendampingimu.


p/s: maybe.. i think im falling in.. hmmm.. maybe.. NOT. please, i don't want to.

Doa Seorang Kekasih
- In-Team

Oh Tuhan, seandainya telah Kau catatkan
Dia milikku, tercipta untuk diriku
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan

Ya Allah, ku mohon
Apa yang telah Kau takdirkan
Ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buatku
Kerana Engkau tahu segala isi hatiku
Pelihara daku dari kemurkaanMu

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pemurah
Beri kekuatan jua harapan
Membina diri yang lesu tak bermaya
Semaikan setulus kasih di jiwa

Ku pasrah kepadaMu
Kurniakanlah aku
Pasangan yang beriman
Bisa menemani aku
Supaya ku dan dia
Dapat melayar bahtera
Ke muara cinta yang Engkau redhai

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pengasih
Engkau sahaja pemeliharaku
Dengarkan rintihan hambaMu ini
Jangan Engkau biarkan ku sendiri

Agarku bisa bahagia
Walau tanpa bersamanya
Gantikanlah yang hilang
Tumbuhkan yang telah patah
Ku inginkan bahagia
Di dunia dan akhirat
PadaMu Tuhan ku mohon segala..

Menjeling, menjeling ku bertentang.. mata kita sama memandang..

Selamat Pengantin Baru Norazmi (Abg Boi) dan Siti Nur Aishah..



Alhamdulillah akhirnya mereka selamat di ijabkabulkan pada hari ini.. Insyallah, cinta yang terpatri dan mahligai yang baru dibina akan terus menjanjikan pahala yang tidak putus-putus buat mereka berdua.. Amin..


So when will mine be eh? hahaha...

Wait long long lah ye...

- JoDoH -

Renungkanlah sedalam-dalamnya...

Tidak, jodoh tiada kaitan dengan keturunan. Hanya belum sampai masanya. Ia bagai menanti jambatan untuk ke seberang. Kalau panjang jambatannya jauhlah perjalanan kita. Ada org jodohnya cepat sebab jambatannya singkat. Usia 25 tahun rasanya belumlah terlalu lewat. Dan usia 35 tahun belum apa2 kalau sepanjang usia itu telah digunakan untuk membina kecemerlangan. Nyatakanlah perasaan dan keinginan anda itu dalam doa2 lewat sembahyang. Allah mendengar.

Wanita baik untuk lelaki yang baik, sebaliknya wanita jahat untuk lelaki yang jahat. Biar lambat jodoh asalkan mendapat Mr Right dan biar seorang diri drpd menjadi mangsa lelaki yang tidak beriman kemudian nanti.

Memang kita mudah tersilap mentafsir kehidupan ini. Kita selalu sangka,aku pasti bahagia kalau mendapat ini. Hakikatnya, apabila kita benar2 mendapat apa yang kita inginkan itu, ia juga dtg bersama masalah.

Kita selalu melihat org memandu kereta mewah dan terdetiklah di hati kita,bahagianya org itu. Hakikatnya apabila kita sendiri telah memiliki kereta mewah kita ditimpa pelbagai kerenah. Tidak mustahil pula org yang memandu kereta mewah (walaupun sebenarnya tak mewah) terpaksa membayar lebih tatkala berhenti untuk membeli durian di tepi jalan. Orang lain membeli dengan harga biasa, dia terpaksa membayar berlipat ganda.

Ketika anda terperangkap dalam kesesakan jalan raya, motosikal mencelah-celah hingga mampu berada jauh di hadapan. Anda pun mengeluh,alangkah baiknya kalau aku hanya menunggang sebuah motosikal seperti itu dan cepat sampai ke tempat yang dituju. Padahal si penunggang motosikal mungkin sedang memikirkan bilakah dia akan memandu kereta di tgh2 bandar raya.

Bukan semua yang anda sangka membahagiakan itu benar2 membahagiakan.Bahagianya mungkin ada tapi deritanya juga datang sama. Semua benda, pasti ada baik buruknya.

Demikian juga perkahwinan. Ia baik sebab ia dibenarkan oleh agama, sunnah Nabi, sebagai saluran yang betul untuk melepaskan syahwat di samping membina sahsiah dan sebagainya, tapi ia juga buruk sebab ramai org yang berkahwin hidupnya semakin tidak terurus.

Ramai orang menempah neraka sebaik sahaja melangkahkan kaki ke alam berumahtangga. Bukankah dengan ijab dan kabul selain menghalalkan hubungan kelamin, tanggungjawab yang terpaksa dipikul juga turut banyak? Bukankah apabila anda gagal melaksanakannya, anda membina dosa seterusnya jambatan ke neraka?

Berapa ramaikah yang menyesali perkahwinan masing2 padahal dahulunya mereka bermati-matian membina janji, memupuk cinta kasih malah ada yang sanggup berkorban apa sahaja asalkan segala impian menjadi nyata?

Jika tidak sanggup untuk bergelar isteri tidak usah berkahwin dulu. Jika merasakan diri belum cukup ilmu untuk bergelar ibu ataupun ayah,belajarlah dulu. Jika rasa2 belum bersedia untuk bersabar dgn kerenah anak2, carilah dulu kesabaran itu. Jangan berkahwin dahulu sebab kenyataannya ramai yang tidak bersedia untuk melangkah tetapi telah melompat, akhirnya jatuh terjerumus dan tidak jumpa akar berpaut tatkala cuba mendaki naik.

Berkahwin itu indah dan nikmat bagi yang benar2 mengerti tuntutan2nya.

Berkahwin itu menjanjikan pahala tidak putus2 bagi yang menjadikannya gelanggang untuk mengukuhkan iman, mencintai ALLAH dan menjadikan syurga sebagai matlamat. Berkahwin itu sempadan dari ketidaksempurnaan insan kepada kesempurnaan insan - bagi yang mengetahui rahsia2nya.

Berkahwinlah anda demi ALLAH dan Nabi-Nya, bukan berkahwin kerana perasaan dan mengikut kebiasaan. Jodoh usah terlalu dirisaukan, tiba masanya ia akan datang menjemput, namun perlu juga anda membuka lorong2nya agar jemputan itu mudah sampai dan tidak terhalang. "

Seorang teman pernah berpesan..

"Kadang2 Allah sembunyikan matahari..Dia datangkan petir dan kilat..kita menangis dan tertanya-tanya,kemana hilangnya sinar..Rupa2nya.. Allah nak hadiahkan kita pelangi.."


** This entry was taken from jannatuladnin.blogspot.com

Senandung Hidup
- J.Mizan

Bila hati dalam kesedihan
bila diri rasa kesunyian
mengapa itu harus kau kesalkan
jangan pula kau tangiskan

tiada insan yang tetap sempurna
tiada pula yang terus derita
hidup ibarat berputarnya roda
ambil itu untuk renungan

hidup ini suatu perjuangan
perlukan pengorbanan
jangan kesal bila kau kecundang
anggap itu bukan penghalang

bila jaya usah engkau lupa
bila gagal usah kau kecewa
berjaya bukan tanda bahagia
gagal tidak erti derita


indah barisan liriknya.. satu-satunya lagu yang amat aku gemari.

last friday (23.05.2008) me, my bro and a few of our silat peeps went to the recent Adidas Sale at the EXPO.. and it nearly drove us to a point of SHOPPING MADNESS. we wanted to buy almost EVERYTHING. cos everything's super cheap sia!! went round and round the entire hall like 10 times.. grabbing whatever stuff that attracted our eyes.. then contemplate for about half an hour whether to buy this, or that or both or that again! then go round and round again... contemplate again.. and rounding again.. giler beb! belom pergi training dah penat! hahah.. thank god we managed to resist the urge to splurge and decided to put back a few of the items that we were holding on to.. me and bro end up spending only about $200.. hahah.. ok lemme try to recall what me and bro bought eh.. hmmm.. 2 sweaters, 2 bags, 1 t-shirt and 1 sports bra(mine of course!).. i'm a hapi hapi hapi hapi hapi hapi gal! =D

ok then we headed to Bugis for dinner.. the place was so crowded that day.. we had a hard time finding a place to even sit, let alone eat.. after about 45 minutes of walking, we finally settled down at this coffeeshop called Fong Seng or something like that lah.. i had Lor Mee.. which tasted so yucky.. but i finished it up anyway cos i needed to GAIN weight for the upcoming PSK competition.. at least 2 more kilos man..

after dinner, we had some photo-taking session.. or should i say "arguing-on-how-to-pose-for-the-camera" session.. came up with a few funny poses but in the end decided on a lame one. duh.


that's us..


my bro. the only bee among the roses. hahah..


kecoh part 1..


kecoh part 2..


masih kecoh!!


finally we all agreed on this.. ahh.. bagus jugaklah.. penat adik aku tunggu nak petik camera..


on the way to masjid sultan for maghrib prayers.. budak2 seligi walaupun asyik silat je.. tak lupe solat.. alhamdulillah..


sempat amek gambar eh fadillah!


after all that, we took bus 960 to bukit panjang cc for silat training.

THE END.

i luurrrrrrrvvvveeeeee this song.. how i wish someone would sing it to me one day.. confirm cair beb!

Bidadari Hatiku
- by B8

Lirikan Matamu Menawan
Mempesonakan Kau Ku Girangkan
Senyuman Manis Mu Bagaikan
Bunga Di Taman Indah Menyerikan

Tiada Kata Yang Dapat Ku Luahkan
Seindah Mu Oh Juwita Ku
Hanya Dapat Ku Membayangkan
Kejelitaan Mu Di Lubuk Hati Ku

Bridge:

Bagaimana..Jikalau Semua Ini
Tidak Lagi Bersama Dengan Ku
Ku Berdoa...Agar Dikau Mengerti
Yang Ku Setia Terhadap Mu

Chorus:

Sayang Dengarkanlah
Dikaulah Bidadari Hatiku
Lautan Api Kan Ku Renangi
Hanya Untuk Ku Memiliki Mu

Sayang Dengarkanlah
Dikaulah Bidadari Hatiku
Lautan Api Kan Ku Renangi
Hanya Untuk Ku Memiliki Mu
Hanya Untuk Ku Memiliki Mu...



yah, keep wishing diana.

Aku perlukan lebih masa. Lebih masa untuk merenung, termenung dan berfikir. Lebih masa untuk mengelamun dan mendampingi perasaanku. Lebih masa untuk mengadaptasi dengan kehidupan baru. Lebih masa untuk mengenangmu. Lebih masa untuk perlahan-lahan aku simpan kenangan lalu. Aku perlukan lebih masa. Aku perlukan lebih masa untuk kesemuanya!

Joke of the week - Why I fired my secretary

Last week was my birthday and I didn't feel very well waking up on that
morning. I went downstairs for breakfast hoping my wife would be pleasant
and say, 'Happy Birthday!', and possibly have a small present for me. As
it turned out, she barely said good morning, let alone ' Happy Birthday.' I
thought... Well, that's marriage for you, but the kids... They will
remember. My kids came bounding down stairs to breakfast and didn't say a
word.So when I left for the office, I felt pretty low and somewhat
despondent.

As I walked into my office, my secretary Jane said, 'Good Morning Boss,
and by the way Happy Birthday!' It felt a little better that at least
someone had remembered. I worked until one o'clock , when Jane knocked on
my door and said, 'You know, It's such a beautiful day outside,and it is
your Birthday, what do you say we go out to lunch, just you and me.' I
said, 'Thanks, Jane, that's the greatest thing I've heard all day. Let's
go !'

We went to lunch. But we didn't go where we normally would go. She chose
instead at a quiet bistro with a private table. We had two martinis each
and I enjoyed the meal tremendously. On the way back to the office, Jane
said, 'You know, It's such a beautiful day... We don't need to go straight
back to the office, Do We ?'

I responded, 'I guess not. What do you have in mind ?'
She said, 'Let's drop by my apartment, it's just around the corner.'
After arriving at her apartment, Jane turned to me and said, ' Boss, if
you don't mind, I'm going to step into the bedroom for just a moment.I'll
be right back.'

'Ok.' I nervously replied. She went into the bedroom and, after a couple
of minutes, she came out carrying a huge birthday cake ...Followed by my
wife, my kids, and dozens of my friends and co-workers, all singing 'Happy
Birthday'.


And I just sat there...










On the couch...










Naked.

I finally got this.. and i'm the happiest gal on earth today.. =D

Brian Joseph White.. the actor in the movie Stomp The Yard.. what a beautiful man eh.. haizz.. *meltz*

Kadang-kadang aku terfikir adakah aku ini perempuan "murahan"? Senang dipujuk atau malah senang dimanipulasi? Senang saja aku menurut pujuk rayu yang akhirnya bisa membuatkan aku tersepit?

Aku fikir, fikirkan itu semua. Aku harus ada ego. Aku harus keras. Aku tak kisah. Akan kutetap cuba menjauh, tak mahu lagi tautan itu mendekatiku. Seperti pengalamanku yang sudah, ku pasti tidak mahu berhubung bersama dia lagi. Semakin aku toleh ke belakang, semakin perlahan perjalananku di depan.

Cukuplah sampai di sini perhubungan kita. Anggaplah ini suatu perjalanan hidup.. bukan penghabisan, tetapi permulaan yang baru.


Beburung berzikir di sangkar raudhah, Menyahut azan di tabir senja, Insan berkasih kerana Allah, Bertemu.. berpisah kerana cintaNya.

to you.

you wanna know why i cut that line? tell me, after all the harsh words that you've said to me, what makes you think that i can still trust you?! the line that you're using is under my name. i signed the 2 year contract cos you wanted to use it so badly. but now that we're no longer together, why would i still let you continue to use it? what you did to your previous ex, Nurul, you can do it to me too. i heard she had to pay for the few hundred plus that you owe M1 right?
furthermore, with all the animosity and hatred between us now, you can jolly well use that line and not pay the bill right? and in the end, i will have to pay for it. i can never trust you again rizal. never.

you wanna slam me all over your blog, go ahead. i'd expected it. trust me, this is the last time i'm blogging about you here. i've never hated anyone this much, until now. believe me when i say, I HATE YOU. my parents were right about you, my couz were right about you, my frenz were right about you and even abg ramli was right about you. you're the reason i failed. you're the reason i became so weak. and you're definitely the biggest mistake in my life.

FBI Job Interview

The FBI had an opening for an assassin.

After all the background checks, interviews and testing were done, there were 3 finalists; two men and a woman.

For the final test, the FBI agents took one of the men to a large metal door and handed him a gun.

"We must know that you will follow your instructions no matter what the circumstances. Inside the room you will find your wife sitting in a chair... Kill her!!"

The man said, "You can't be serious. I could never shoot my wife." The agent said, "Then you're not the right man for this job. Take your wife and go home."

The second man was given the same instructions. He took the gun and went into the room. All was quiet for about 5 minutes. The man came out with tears in his eyes, "I tried, but I can't kill my wife." The agent said,"You don't have what it takes. Take your wife and go home."

Finally, it was the woman's turn. She was given the same instructions, to kill her husband. She took the gun and went into the room. Shots were heard, one after another. There was screaming, crashing, banging on the walls. After a few minutes, all was quiet.

The door opened slowly and there stood the woman, wiping the sweat from her brow. "This gun is loaded with blanks" she said.

"I had to beat him to death with the chair."


MORAL of the story: Women are crazy. Don't mess with them.

A young and pretty lady posted this on a popular forum..

Title: What should I do to marry a rich guy?

I'm going to be honest of what I'm going to say here. I'm 25 this year.
I'm very pretty, have style and good taste. I wish to marry a guy with
$500k annual salary or above. You might say that I'm greedy, but an
annual salary of $1M is considered only as middle class in New York . My
requirement is not high. Is there anyone in this forum who has an income
of $500k annual salary? Are you all married? I wanted to ask: what
should I do to marry rich persons like you? Among those I've dated, the
richest is $250k annual income, and it seems that this is my upper
limit. If someone is going to move into high cost residential area on
the west of New York City, $250k annual income is not
enough.

I'm here humbly to ask a few questions:
1) Where do most rich bachelors hang out? (Please list down the
names and addresses of bars, restaurant, gym)
2) Which age group should I target?
3) Why most wives of the riches is only average-looking? I've met
a few girls who doesn't have looks and are not interesting, but they are
able to marry rich guys
4) How do you decide who can be your wife, and who can only be
your girlfriend? (my target now is to get married)

- Ms. Pretty


Here's a reply from a Wall Street Financial guy..

Dear Ms. Pretty,

I have read your post with great interest. Guess there are lots of girls
out there who have similar questions like yours. Please allow me to
analyze your situation as a professional investor. My annual income is
more than $500k, which meets your requirement, so I hope everyone
believes that I'm not wasting time here.

From the standpoint of a business person, it is a bad decision to marry
you. The answer is very simple, so let me explain. Put the details
aside, what you're trying to do is an exchange of "beauty" and "money":
Person A provides beauty, and Person B pays for it, fair and square.
However, there's a deadly problem here, your beauty will fade, but my
money will not be gone without any good reason. The fact is, my income
might increase from year to year, but you can't be prettier year after
year. Hence from the viewpoint of economics, I am an appreciation asset,
and you are a depreciation asset. It's not just normal depreciation, but
exponential depreciation. If that is your only asset, your value will be
much worried 10 years later

By the terms we use in Wall Street, every trading has a position, dating
with you is also a "trading position". If the trade value dropped we
will sell it and it is not a good idea to keep it for long term - same
goes with the marriage that you wanted. It might be cruel to say this,
but in order to make a wiser decision any assets with great depreciation
value will be sold or "leased". Anyone with over $500k annual income is
not a fool; we would only date you, but will not marry you. I would
advice that you forget looking for any clues to marry a rich guy. And by
the way, you could make yourself to become a rich person with $500k
annual income. This has better chance than finding a rich fool.

Alasan Mu

Ikhlasnya hati
Sering kali disalah erti
Tulusnya budi
Tidak pernah engkau hargai
Berlalu pergi dengan
Kelukaan ini
Kumengalah... ku bersabar

Bertentang mata seolah-olah tiada apa
Berpaling muka ada saja yang tidak kena
Mencari sebab serta alasan yang kukuh
Supaya tercapai hajatmu

Manis dibibir memutar kata
Malah kau tuduh akulah segala penyebabnya
Siapa terlna pastinya terpukau
Pujukmu, rayumu, suaramu
Yang menagih simpati dan harapan

Engkau pastinya tersenyum
Dengan pengunduran diriki
Tetapi bagi ku pula
Suatu ketenangan

Andai kita terus bersama
Belum tentu kita bahagia
Selagi tidak kau ubah
Cara hidupmu

Ada rahmatnya
Bila tidak lagi bersama
Terasa jauh
Diriku ini dengan dosa

Ku tinggalkanmu walau tanpa kerelaan
Yang nyata kau tidak berubah...

Katalah apa yang kau ingin
Selagi kau dapat berkata
Memang begitu sikapmu
Semenjak dahulu

Enough is Enough.
i had desperately needed something to help me move on. something to completely shut him out of my life. Alhamdulillah. I found it. Thank you Allah.

here's a note to him: i saw what you wrote at her tagboard. throughout our 2 years++ together, i've always felt that you still had feelings for her. and what i saw today, reaffirmed my doubts.

well i do hope she forgives you and accepts you back one day. honestly im not sad nor am i surprised. cos i've known all along. im just disappointed that i didnt have the courage to let you go a long time ago. =) all the best in life rizal. ikhlas saya katakan, i wont miss you at all. hahah.. Sayonara!

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now, to me: WOO HOO.. singlehood baby! it's time to focus on life, work and studies. gotta re-arrange all future plans..marriage? scrap! haha.. no more lovey duey shit. maksiat tau! no more please.. enough is enough. when the right time comes, i'll get my mom to matchmake me or something.. =P. for now i wanna devote myself entirely on building up my career and getting that degree i'm aiming for.. speaking of career, my salary has increased way more than what i'd expected.. terbeliak biji mata when i saw the figures.. Alhamdulillah.. thank you Allah, once again.

everything happens for a reason and maybe God has other plans for me.. semuanya sudah tertulis di Lauh Mahfuz.. sesungguhnya Dia lebih mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk hamba - hambaNya.

semoga diri ini akan terus taubat dan sentiasa diberikan kekuatan dariNya untuk menghadapi hari-hari yang mendatang.. moga aku akan terus istiqamah atas jalanNya walau apa jua ujian yang bakal tiba.. oh! dan tak lupa juga untuk keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatku yang sedang berjuang di KL pada saat ini.. semoga allah melindungi mereka daripada segala rintangan yang akan mereka tempuhi dalam perjuangan mereka di sana.. amin amin ya robbal a'lamiin..

alamak.. my dad's home.. gotta prepare his supper now.. klah that's all for now.. nites!

being single has never felt so good. =)

it's over?

Semakin aku cuba belajar menjaga hati manusia, lagi banyak hati yang aku luka. Adakah sewajarnya ia terjadi untuk mengajar aku tentang soal perasaan yang sukar untuk aku faham.

Mungkin kerana cara aku melindungi diriku ini sekadar membuat dia melihat aku sebagai bukan manusia. Tiada perasaan, egoistik dan self-centred. Hati keras yang degil dan sukar untuk dihampiri.

Apa yang membuat aku sedih adalah ketidakupayaan aku untuk membahagiakan manusia yang membahagiakan aku. Ketidakbolehan aku bertahan untuk terus mencuba dan mencuba untuk terus memperbaiki diriku.

Aku malu bila aku kalah dengan diriku sendiri. Aku sedih bila aku tidak mampu memperbetulkan perkara yang di bawah kuasaku sendiri. Determinasiku lemah. Selemah perasaanku untuk mencuba lagi.

Biarpun mungkin orang yang melihat tidak nampak, malah mungkin tidak tahu apa yang terjadi di belakang mereka, tapi aku tahu. Aku tahu siapa diriku.

Maafkan aku.

Terima kasih atas doa yang telah diucapkan untuk saya tadi. Semoga ia benar-benar dimakbulkan tidak lama lagi. Don't miss me when im gone.


Ya Allah, dengan pengetahuan Engkau terhadap perkara yang ghaib dan kekuasaan Engkau ke atas makhluk, hidupkanlah aku sekiranya Engkau mengetahui hidup itu lebih baik bagiku dan matikanlah aku sekiranya Engkau mengetahui mati itu lebih baik bagiku. Amin amin ya robbal alamiin.

Work schedule has been quite hectic this week.. With the commencement of the peak period coinciding with the deployment of our enhanced back-end processes, everyone in the office is going CRaZieEE.. endless meetings and discussions, humanly-impossible-to-achieve deadlines, prolonged working hours, blood-sucking programmers who cant be bothered to follow proper procedures, unstable server environment and disgusting roaches in the pantry are just some of the things that add to the mad frenzy.. but believe it or not, i love my job. especially the challenging experience of working with all kinds of people, the adrenaline rush i get when rushing for deadlines and the blissful satisfaction i feel afterwards.. oh, and not forgetting the upcoming salary and leave increment in April *smiles*. i can surely say that the good far outweighs the bad, and for that, i'm very thankful to Allah. =)

I.Miss.Them. *sigh*


All the best for the upcoming All Women's Championship girls. Love you all.

Sesetengah orang memang rendah, nilai diri dan pemikiran. Sesetengah orang memang pengecut, secara kasar dan pada dasar. Bagi saya, layar e-mel yang disebarkan baru-baru ini mengenai perguruan tercinta, hanyalah teknik penakut sesetengah pihak untuk bersuara.

Sudah saya jangkakan di suatu hari nanti, suara kurang ajar mereka pasti akan kedengaran. Melambak dan menyentak. Ketidakpuasan di hati mereka yang kotor dan menghina itu berlumba-lumba menghambur fitnah, hasutan dan khianat. Bila nampak orang lain jatuh, barulah mereka puas dan gembira.

Celaka.

Jika mereka fikir kita akan mengangguk kalah tatkala hamburan hujah-hujah mereka yang tidak berasas dan kurang ajar, mereka salah.

i wonder if anyone still visits my blog after my looong hiatus.. hahah.. anyway, i'm sorry to disappoint you further my loyal readers, but you'll have to wait for roughly another week for my next update.. cos im quite busy at the moment(as usual).. besides, i need to change this blogskin first before anything else.. cos it sucks, i know.

so come back next week yah.. i've nothing else to say for now except that i love God, My family, and My frenz. hahaha.. oklah take care everyone. bubbye!

i told you i'll be back. miss me? haha.. =P

No One by Alicia Keys

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I dont worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I dont worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try
Try to divide
Something so real
So till the end of time
Im telling you that

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
oh oh oh..


*i love this song. =)

astarghfirullah.. mengapa ya tuhan.. kau berikan aku ujian seperit ini.

segala impian dan harapan.. hancur buat selamanya.

sesungguhnya aku tidak terdaya lagi. aku ingin kembali kepadamu ya allah.


mungkin telah ditakdirkan olehmu tuhan.. kebahagiaan hanya dapat ku temui di akirat kelak.

Buat semua yang sering hadir ke sini secara sedar ataupun di luar pengetahuan diri ini, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

Maafkan segala silap dan salah diri ini selama kita saling mengenali. Maafkan juga diri ini sekiranya bahasa atau kata-kata di ruang ini telah menyinggung perasaan kalian. Semoga kalian semua berbahagia di samping keluarga dan orang tersayang. Insyaallah.

Sorry, blame it on me.

As life goes on i'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
i realize everything i do is affecting the people around me
so i want to take this time out to apologize for things i have done
and things that have not occurred yet
and the things they don't want to take responsibility for

i'm sorry for the times i left you home
i was on the road and you were alone
i'm sorry for the times that i had to go
i'm sorry for the fact that i did not know
that you were sitting home just wishing we
could go back to when it was just you and me
i'm sorry for the times i would neglect
i'm sorry for the times i disrespect

i'm sorry for the wrong things that i've done
i'm sorry i'm not always there for my son
i'm sorry for the fact that i'm not aware
that you can't sleep at night when i am not there
because i am in the streets like everyday
sorry for the things that i did not say
like how you are the best thing in my world
and how i'm so proud to call you my girl

i understand that there are some problems
and i am not too blind to know
all the pain you kept inside you
even though you might not show
if i can apologize for being wrong
then it's just a shame on me
i'll be the reason for your pain
and you can put the blame on me.

most of you would've probably seen this video on youtube. the guy who beat up that old man looks bloody familiar. damn, i think i know who he is. *shuts mouth*

i'm sorry for saying that you're too controlling. but you can't stop me from doing something that i love. you wanna call me childish, so be it. that's my passion. like it or not, you have to accept it. i will quit when the right time comes. but not now. why couldnt you understand that?

i know what my priorities are. and you're one of them. but this is my life, and i know what i'm doing. why couldnt you just trust me on that? besides, its not like whatever i'm doing is affecting you in any way.

i have never stopped you from doing anything you wanted to do. why must you?

and lastly thanks, for putting down the phone on me in the middle of our conversation. it hurts.


Bertahan

lihat aku disini
kau lukai hati dan perasaan ini
tapi entah mengapa
aku bisa memberikan maaf padamu

mungkin karena .. cinta
padamu tulus dari dasar hatiku
mungkin karena .. aku
berharap kau dapat mengerti cintaku

lihat aku disini
bertahan walau kau slalu menyakiti
hingga air mataku
tak dapat menetes dan habis terurai

mungkin karena .. cinta
padamu tulus dari dasar hatiku
mungkin karena .. aku
berharap kau dapat mengerti cintaku

meski kau terus sakiti aku
cinta ini akan selalu memaafkan
dan aku percaya nanti engkau
mengerti bila cintaku takkan mati


i'm sorry if i'd hurt you in any way.. i love you.

to all my muslim readers,

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak..

Setiap daripada kita ada cerita hidup yang berbeza. Ada orang berjaya tanpa perlu bersusah-payah. Ada juga yang berjaya tetapi terpaksa melalui pahit getir.. seperti saya. Seperti kita.
 
me and love @ work..
Semoga kita sentiasa diberi ketabahan dan kekuatan iman dalam menempuh segala liku-liku kehidupan yang penuh onak dan duri.. sebelum menuju ke alam yang abadi.. Amin amin ya robbal a'lamiin.

entah kenapa hari ni aku asyik melepaskan nafas yang panjang.. bukan sengaja untuk mengeluh, tetapi seakan apa yang di dada terasa amat berat untuk ditanggung. hari demi hari, hanya satu soalan yang kekal beputar di kotak fikiran. wajarkah keputusan yang aku ambil ini? jika iya, mengapa perasaan masih berbolak balik sehingga akhirnya mendatangkan rasa resah di hati.. haiz.

Ya Allah, mampukah aku untuk terus melangkah ke hadapan dengan keadaan sebegini.. terasa diri ini bagaikan terapung-apung di awangan.. segala apa yang hendak aku lakukan selepas ini, semuanya seperti tiada erti lagi.. tiada lagi cita-cita yang perlu dikecapi, tiada lagi impian yang perlu dikejar.. segala perancangan sudah hilang entah ke mana.

dalam keadaan sebegini, tiada apa yang aku harapkan selain daripada keyakinan yang tinggi pada Dia Yang Maha Kuasa lagi Maha Mengetahui.. tapi mampukah aku untuk mendapat keyakinan itu di kala hati sedang berkecamuk?

Ya Allah, pimpinlah hambaMu yang lemah ini.. kurniakanlah diriku hidayah dan taqwa serta maruah untuk ku lalui perkara-perkara yang bakal tiba..hari ini, hari esok dan hari-hari yang seterusnya. Amin amin ya robbal a'lamiin..

Kata-kata boleh menjadi sangat murah dan diam boleh membawa seribu satu makna.
Sudah cukup rasanya kesusahan yang menimpa aku di bumi. Ia harus pergi. Aku sesungguhnya layak untuk kehidupan yang baru.. tenang, suci dan hakiki. Tidak akan pernah wujud kekecewaan, tidak akan pernah ada kesedihan.


p/s: thank you for letting me go. mungkin kali ini, saya tidak akan dapat terima awak kembali. saya pernah hidup dalam ketakutan. kini, masih saya begitu. takut untuk semuanya yang ada. yang bakal tiba. saya amat takut dengan awak.

i lost my freaking handphone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *pulls hair*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

haiz... innalillah.

had silat performance yesterday at fajar in the afternoon.. then straight to ain bro's wedding.. reach home around 6.30pm.. rested for 1 hour.. then off to cairnhill training .. i was so shagged.. i could barely lift my eyes.. and my head was throbbing.. but for the sake of learning pukulan, i dragged myself there.. i'd already missed last week's training.. so i can't afford to lose out this week's either..

reached cairnhill around 8.40pm.. damn late lah.. abg fili was the first to greet me.. he asked why my face today so "layu".. i just smiled and "hormat" him.. too tired to even answer him.. sorry bro.. then i looked around at all the other pesilat faces who went for the performance in the afternoon.. they were all shagged too.. and to make things worse, the room was unusually HUMID that night.. i felt like i was in a sauna.. basah satu baju.. haiyo.

but the training was worth every single drop of sweat lah.. despite all the uncomfortable situations, i did learned alot.. thank you, abg ramli and abg fili, for the knowledge that you've imparted on us..

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hmm... he was quiet yesterday.. didnt even msg.. let alone call.. busy with work i guess.. and thanks, for screaming at me when i called.. i just wanted to say i miss you. that's all. *sigh*

i just got to know you're already out with your fishing budies today.. have fun and take care of yourself k. i love you..

Don't Matter

Nivea, Akon
Hey hey hey
Nivea, Akon
Hey hey hey

When I say I love sometimes those words don't explain
So much you do for me
Can't picture a day without your face
I'm always seein a kodak moment when you're next to me
Sometimes boy I can't breathe
Boy swear you'll never leave

My love will never change
It will always be this way
We'll always be the same
And they can't take that away
We can run away
Our love will lead the way
So we'll just let them hate
Cause they can't stop us babe

[Chorus]
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe

Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe

I told my mother that I'd be loving you til the end
And if I had to start over, I'd do it all again
And it doesn't matter what anyone has to say
Cause in you I can depend, boy you are my best friend

My love will never change
It will always be this way
We'll always be the same
And they can't take that away
We can run away
Our love will lead the way
So we'll just let them hate
Cause they can't stop us babe

[Chorus]

Babe, babe, babe, babe, hey
Nobody, nobody, nobody
THey don't wanna see us
Nobody, nobody, nobody

[Chorus]


~ Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter, no. Cause I got you babe. ~

haiz.. i'd spent my entire day jus waiting.. and waiting.. and waiting for him.

its almost 1am, and i'm still waiting. hmm, i think i'm going crazy.

i hope tomorrow will be a better day. *sigh*

After a while I learn
The subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul

And I learn
That love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't always mean security

And I begin to learn
That kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises

And I begin to accept my defeats
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child

And I learn
To build all my roads on today
'Cause tomorrow's ground's too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight

After a while I learn
That even sunshine burns, if I get too much of it
So I plant your own garden
And decorate my own soul
Instead of waiting for someone to bring me flowers

And I learn that I really can endure
I really am strong
I really do have worth
And I learn
And I learn

With every goodbye, I learn.

boy said something.
gal was hurt.
boy was aware he had hurt gal.
boy apologised.
gal was still hurt.
boy gave up and left gal alone.
gal was even hurt.
gal cried.
boy couldnt care less and wanted to sleep.
boy ate sleeping pills.
gal(still crying) called guy.
gal just wanna to talk to boy and let boy know how much he had hurt gal.
but boy just wanna sleep.
gal put the phone down and wipe her tears.
gal gave up on boy. totally.


"Wanna please,wanna keep,wanna treat your
woman right?
Not just dough,better show, that you know she's
worth your time
You will lose, if you choose, to refuse to put her first
She can and she will find a man who knows her worth."

- Alicia Keys, A Woman's Worth.

bila aku mengimbas kembali wadah dan petah percakapan yang tertera di blognya, aku rasa amat kecewa.. seumpama tidak ada perkara atau orang lain yang ingin dibusuk-busukan.. tak habis-habis.

secara peribadi, aku tidak tahu reaksi apa yang harus kuberi. aku berdiam saja, seperti biasa. namun hati ini amat marah.

Kepada yang punya diri,
mereka yang kau kutuk itu, kuanggap seperti keluargaku sendiri. oleh itu, aku turut marah. sememangnya lidah dan kata-kata lebih tajam dari pisau. tapi kau, sememangnya kurang ajar.




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on a lighter note,

arrrrghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!it's our 2 years anniversary!!!!! hooorrraayyy!!!!! i shall post a proper entry tmr.. need to sleep now.. ciaoz! take care everyone..

i cried and i cried.. u still pushed me.. till i couldnt take it anymore.

i said the word idiot. it wasnt meant for you. it was for me.

i'm the idiot who still let you hurt me.

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Dear me,

i thought you were stronger this time. but i was wrong huh.

just cry yourself to sleep.. go on.. it'll feel alot better. trust me.

tmr you'll wake up to a brighter day. if it still hurts, just pretend you're happy.

Whatever happens, remember, i love you. Allah loves you.

Love,
Diana Nursita aka me.

yeessssahhhhh!!!!! PSK IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! berakhirlah segala beban yang dipikul selama 2 bulan.. lepas ivp, terus psk.. dari class B, kene naik class C dlm masa seminggu.. makan sampai muntah2/berak2.. togok air sampai perut kembong.. (tu pun weight pun masih tak cukop!).. kaki kanan dari lebam terus bengkak macam ikan buntal.. lawan opponent sumer tinggi2, kaki panjang2 dan berat2 nak mampus.. hahah.. but the whole experience was worth it lah.. =) kk bout my finals with farah.. jeng jeng jeng..

i LOST. duhh!! farah kaki jantan.. hahah.. she's damn good.. ever since she defeated someone in PSP, she became one of the few people that i look up to.. so when i had the chance to fight her, it was indeed an honour.. cheh! mcm paham jek eh.. hahah.. to farah, all the best for SIJORI aite sis.. till we meet again. =)


the number 2.. my lucky number. hahah..


seligi tunggal angkatan's dewasa girls.. i love them..


me and bros.. muka buruk seh.. hahah..
went to PS with love yesterday to catch Transformers.. one word to describe that movie: AWESOME. the effects ad everything.. fuhyoo power! terkenang balik zaman transformers kiter dulu.. hahah.. jauh berbeza seh.. technology changes everything. errm k whatever. we had our dinner at pizza hut after that.. then went shopping.. bought matching shirts and jeans for our big day next week.. oh i can't wait!! heheh..

mom was discharged today after zohor.. she's healing well alhamdulillah.. thank you everyone.. for all the wishes, thoughts and prayers, flowers, fruits, cards, $$ and biscuits (satu bulan pun tak habis).. thank you all once again.

now that mom's ok, i can finally rest and get some sleep.. till then, take care everyone.
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Ya Allah.. jika ujian ini adalah untuk menguji keimananku, berikanlah aku kekuatan dan ketaqwaan.. jika ujian ini adalah untuk kafarah dosa-dosaku, kurniakanlah aku kesabaran dan keredhaan.. untuk hari ini, hari esok dan hari-hari yang seterusnya.. Amin amin.. Ya Rabbal A'lamin.


[ Ku sujud di hening malam yang sepi.. sesepi jiwaku. Ku bermohon dan menangis di pangkuanMu Ya Allah. ]

Alhamdulillah i won my match. but i did not perform up to everyone's expectations. yes i agree, it was definitely a disappointing win. and to add salt to my wound, my morale hit rock bottom afterwards.

i went home feeling like shit yesterday. went straight to my room and called him immediately.. as we talked, i let the tears flow. he patiently listened.. without questioning why, he already knew the reason. i let it all out.

then slowly and subtly he comfort me with his words of encouragement.. eventually the tears began to dry up and not only was i back to my normal self, i felt even more motivated. he believes in me and made me believe in myself. thank you .. that was all that i needed to hear. i promise i'll do my best in the finals. insyaallah. and yes, i'll have fun too! =)


My words were not spoken but you already knew what was on my mind.
The tears spilled from my eyes and you didn't question why.
You wrapped your arms around me and I burried my face in your shirt.
You knew why I was so upset.. I didn't have to say a word.

ok here's something that i wanna share with you peeps.. look at the dates below..

14/07/2005 - the day we got attached.
16/09/1985 - my birthday.
18/11/1983 - his birthday.
01/07/2007 - yesterday. (the day we discovered this)
14/07/2007 - our 2 year's anniversary.

now check this out..

1. i'm 2 years younger than him.

2. you add 2 to our "attachment" day(14) and month(07), and you'll get my birth day and month. (14+2=16 , 07+2=09).

3. you can also add 2 to my birth day and month and you'll get his birth day and month! (16+2=18, 09+2=11).

4. that's not all! we discovered this coincidence thingy yesterday (01/07/2007), which is EXACTLY 2 weeks before our 2 years anniversary!!

hahah!! strange eh? i can't believe it myself.. both of us got so excited when we realized the links between the dates.. maybe it's a sign.. that we're indeed meant for each other.. i know you wanna puke lah people.. haha i don't give a damn! it's proven now.. our lucky number is 2!

Saat gembira pujilah ALLAH, saat kesukaran carilah ALLAH, saat kesunyian sembahlah ALLAH, saat kesakitan yakinlah ALLAH..

saat demi saat, terima kasih ALLAH. sagala puji bagiMU ya ALLAH.

Baru sahaja dapat berita bahawa sahabatku Rahayu telah keguguran kandungan pertamanya.

Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiuun..

"Sesungguhnya kepunyaan Allah segala yang telah diambil dan kepunyaanNya segala yang telah diberi dan setiap sesuatu di sisiNya mempunyai tempoh yang tertentu..bersabarlah dan harapkan pahala dari Allah". (Hadis riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim).

Dunia hanya tempat persinggahan sementara sebelum kita berpindah ke alam barzakh dan seterusnya ke alam akhirat yang abadi.. yang pasti, setiap yang hidup pasti akan kembali kepada pencipta yang Esa..
Bersabarlah Ayu.. tak siapa pinta ujian sebegini datang bertamu.. walau hatimu kian remuk derita, terimalah segala takdir dengan hati yang terbuka. Insyaallah ada seribu hikmah di sebalik apa yang telah berlaku.. kerana kita hanya dapat berusaha dan berdoa, Allah yang menentukan segalanya.. Bersabarlah sahabatku.. tangisan hari ini mungkin akan mencetuskan kegembiraan di masa akan datang. Yakinlah pada janji Allah. Ku berdoa agar kau sentiasa sabar dan tabah hadapi ujian ini. Amin amin.. Ya Rabbal A'lamin. *hugs*

forgive me. *sobs*

to all seligi tunggal angkatan peeps, mei tengok ni! tengku syamil and thamlikha (dunno if i spelt it correctly) nasyid-ing.. macam kumpulan raihan seh.. power! =)

Penghulu (Sayyidul) Istighfar

Penghulu istighfar ialah kamu menyebut,



"Allaahumma anta Rabbii, laa ilaaha illa anta, khalaqtanii wa ana 'abduka, wa ana 'alaa 'ahdika wa wa'dika mastatha'tu, a'uudzubika min syarri ma shana'tu, abuu-u laka bi ni'matika 'alayya, wa abuu-u bidzambii faghfir lii, fa innahu laa yaghfirudzdzunuuba illa anta"

(Ertinya: Ya Allah, Engkaulah Tuhanku, tidak ada Tuhan selain Engkau. Engkaulah yang telah menciptakan aku, dan aku adalah hambaMu. Aku di dalam genggaman-Mu dan di dalam perjanjian setia ( beriman dan taat ) kepada-Mu setinggi-tinggi kemampuanku. Aku berlindung kepadaMu dari keburukan yang telah aku lakukan. Aku mengakui nikmatMu kepadaku, dan aku mengakui dosaku kepadaMu, maka ampunilah aku, kerana sesungguhnya tidak ada yang mengampuni seluruh dosa, kecuali Engkau).

Beliau bersabda, "Barangsiapa yang membacanya pada waktu siang dengan penuh keyakinan, lalu dia mati pada hari itu sebelum petang, maka dia tergolong dalam penghuni surga. Dan barangsiapa yang membacanya pada waktu malam dengan penuh keyakinan, lalu dia mati sebelum subuh, maka dia juga tergolong dalam penghuni surga".

(HR Bukhari:5831)

for all "Miami Ink" fans out there.. check this out!

http://acidcrue.blogspot.com/

IVP 2007 dah start lah dey!

for the past two days everything went well as planned.. alhamdulillah.. for the tanding team, 15 wins out of 21.. not bad ah! congrats to those who made it tru the next round.. to those who didnt, don't give up ok.. you peeps put up a really good fight.. there are many more competitions coming up.. so keep the fire burning aite people!

now about my match yesterday.. alamak dey.. even though i won, it was one of my shittiest fight ah.. really disappointed at myself.. berlaga-laga macam kerbau.. only managed to buck-up at round 3.. made her fall 2 times(only).. dah lah tu, kene tembak 2 kali seh! *sigh* memalukan.. hmmm.. i better keep my weight in-check this week.. the 7 rounds around the stadium on the morning of my fight really wore me out.. i managed to lost 2kg after the run, but i was tremendously exhausted and dehydrated after that.. i refrained myself from eating the whole day and only sipped small amounts of coke to keep me awake till my match which was at 4.45pm.. i tried not to show abg jas(my coach) that i was "panchit"-ing.. but from my sikap pasang, i think he could tell. hahaha.. sooooo to the team, please maintain your weight k people! especially Ahmad! you're one of our gold medalist hopefuls.. please jaga weight tu betul-betul!

congrats to my bro Hakkim for winning the GOLD medal in the Regu team category and for his superb fight yesterday.. even with a stitched-up lip(sustained during his previous match), he fought really well and of course, WON! i'm so proud of you dear bro!! akak doa punya doa agar bibir tu tak kene pape.. kecut isi perut aku sume tau! haha.. you're already in the semis now.. pray that i'll make it tru too k!



Doc saiful examining his lips..


and the stiching begins.. with my mom(not seen in pic) and dad looking on.. and that's Hadi's hand(right) videoing the whole procedure..


anita serawak nyer bibir pun kalah! hahaha..


and to my ikan stongkol, thank you for coming down to support me dear.. it means alot.. you're the motivation that i need.. i love you and thank you once again. =)

Saya benci menunggu. Saya benci menantikan sesuatu yang tergantung, tidak bertali. Sampai bila?

Kau berlalu tanpa suara. Dan aku masih terpaku dan termangu, terkeliru di situ.

~ If it's true that when you loved somebody, sometimes you have to set them free. I just did. And it hurts. ~

it is times like this when i just wish my bestfriend is still in singapore.

going out for a job intv in 15 mins time. wish me luck people. damn. im so nervous.

Kenapa ya, kita sering melepaskan marah, geram atau stress dengan menyalurkannya kepada orang terdekat yang amat kita sayangi? Dan selalunya ia berlaku tanpa kita sedari. Mungkin jarak di antara kita dan dia hampir tiada, kerana selalunya batasan itu lupus dek 'kerna sayang aku telan apa saja', perkara ini boleh berlaku bila-bila masa dengan senang tanpa disangka. Tapi, bila sudah terlepas dan kita sedar, pasti semuanya sudah terlambat untuk berlalu pulang. Ke tempat asalnya.

~ Mungkin apa yang kita perlukan adalah masa, untuk lebih memahami apa jua perkara di antara kita. ~

I'd rather chew on broken glass than waste my time(and tears) on words I know you didn't mean.. I forgive you sweetheart. and I love you. Always.

please forgive me too.

heyya! im baaaack. and im so worn-out. =P

training camp RAWKZ.. the 7km run from NUS to Bukit Batok was the most strenuous event of the 3 days.. i've never ran THAT far before in my life! sedangkan 2.4km je dah boleh terkenchit, apetah lagi 7km! hahah.. cramp satu badan beb. =S

playing Charades with the team was hilariously comical! especially when Sayed did the mortal combat thingy and Aidil's Mmm'bop.. haha.. pecah2 perut seh.. oh yah, not forgetting CINTA MONYET with Hudee! hahhah.. korang2 yang tak faham tu, tak payah fahamkan lah.. saya malas nak elaborate.

anyway, i really had a GREAT time.. tiring, but it's definitely worth every single drop of sweat that comes out of my pores. Kudos to Halimah and Zul (and the other camp commitee) for a job well done!

to the team, let us persevere on and train hard aite! "The will to win is important, but the will to prepare is vital." - Joe Paterno

and to my ikan stongkol("Stone-Cold"): thanks for fetching me home sweetheart..



~ I LOVE YOU! ~

Setiap kali kulihat gambar ini, hati berhenti berdenyut buat seketika. Nadi berhenti berdetik, minda berhenti berfikir.. dan airmata deras mengalir. Sayu dan luka di hati masih terasa hingga ke saat ini..

Atuk, Yana amat merindui Atuk. Yana tidak pernah lupa mengingati Atuk setiap kali Yana berdoa. Semoga Atuk sentiasa bahagia di bawah lindungan Yang Esa. Semoga Atuk mendapat limpah rahmat Yang Kuasa. Semoga Allah meletakkan Atuk tinggi di sisi Nya..

Amin amin ya robbal a'lamiin.. Al-Fatihah.


Not being able to say goodbye for the last time to the person you love so dearly hurts so bad. Even till today. I miss you Grandpa. *sobs*

ANNOUNCEMENT!!

We need VOLUNTEERS for the upcoming

NUS Tertiary Silat Championships 2007

Details of event:

Date:
2,3rd June 2007 (Sat, Sun)
&
9,10th June 2007 (Sat, Sun)

Venue:
NUS multi purpose sports hall.

Time:
10a.m to 9p.m.

*Fret not about the long hours, we'll be having shifts.

Jobscopes available:

- Ushers

- Liaison Officers

- Weight checkers

- Time keepers


Perks of being a volunteer:

1) CCA points (for NUS students)

2) Learn more about Silat

3) Free limited edition NUS Tertiary Silat Championships 2007 t-shirts (at least 2 days)

4) Food provided

5) Get to catch all the HOT guys/gals from the different institutions LIVE in action! including ME! hahah..


Interested? Please email your particulars:

1) name

2) matric no. (for NUS students)

3) contact no.

4) email

5) days and time of availability

6) t-shirt size

to emailrashidah@hotmail.com

or simply send them to 91556704.

For more info about the event, click [ here ]

Help spread the words around! The more people we get, the more FUN it will be!

** closing date: 18th May 2007.

PETUA IMAM SYAFIE....

Empat perkara menguatkan badan:

1. Makan daging
2. Memakai haruman
3. Kerap mandi
4. Berpakaian dari kapas


Empat perkara melemahkan badan:

1. Banyak berkelamin (bersetubuh)
2. Selalu cemas
3. Banyak minum air ketika makan
4. Banyak makan bahan yang masam


Empat perkara menajamkan Mata:

1. Duduk mengadap kiblat
2. Bercelak sebelum tidur
3. Memandang yang hijau
4. Berpakaian bersih


Empat perkara merosakan Mata:

1. Memandang najis
2. Melihat orang dibunuh
3. Melihat kemaluan
4. Membelakangi kiblat


Empat perkara menajamkan fikiran:

1. Tidak banyak berbual kosong
2. Rajin bersugi (gosok gigi)
3. Bercakap dengan orang soleh
4. Bergaul dengan para ulama


Empat cara tidur:

1. TIDUR PARA NABI
Tidur terlentang sambil berfikir tentang kejadian langit Dan bumi.

2. TIDUR PARA ULAMA' & AHLI IBADAH
Miring ke sebelah kanan untuk memudahkan terjaga untuk solat malam.

3. TIDUR PARA RAJA YANG HALOBA
Miring ke sebelah kiri untuk mencernakan makanan yang banyak dimakan.

4. TIDUR SYAITAN
Menelungkup / tiarap seperti tidurnya ahli neraka.


~ Innasolatatanha anil fahsyaar iwal munkar - Sesungguhnya solat itu dapat mencegah kita dari melakukan perbuatan keji dan mungkar. ~

ok i need a moment to vent out my anger here.

To S*h**mi: can you take my freaking picture off your friendster profile!?? i don't see the need for you to put my pic there with the caption "Dikecewakan lagi.." what the??!  it has been almost 4 months since i last contacted you and i can't believe you're still mad at me cos i REJECTED you. be an adult for goodness sake. we barely know each other for a WEEK and you were already telling me that you love me sooo much and stuff..don't make me puke ok! tell me, were you THAT desperate?? were you attracted to my appearance(tapi muka aku mcm tapai basi pun kau suka)? or was it the fact that i was in NUS? i don't believe that you were in "love" with me for the right reasons dude.

you don't even know me.

besides, i'd just broken up with my bf whom i've known for a lifetime and whom i'm still madly in love with till now. so how do you expect me to just get over him and fall head over heels for you within a week!!? that's ridiculous!!

i think it's time for you to GROW UP dude. you're 26 now, but you're still acting like a 6 year old.

lastly, thank you for pissing me off. if my anger could kill, you'd be dead by now.

Jadilah yang tebal itu iman dan yang nipis itu lidah, yang tajam itu akal, yang lembut itu hati, yang ringan itu solat, yang halus itu suara, yang luas itu ilmu dan yang manis itu senyuman..

~ Wanita hiasan dunia.. seindah hiasan adalah wanita solehah.. ~